the livest journal.

you will never believe what happened this weekend..

i was at the morgan's house on saturday night and sam mentioned the fact that he was able to somehow dig up his wife's archived livejournal for her... and it provided hours of quality reading for the both of them. so.. i was obviously begging for him to somehow find mine (since my attempts were unsuccessful).. and after a few minutes of searching, it magically appeared on his computer. genius.. that guy.

but before i go on and give you the link to it.. let me just shine a big bright light on a few things..
1) only read this if you are the slightest bit curious about who i was as a brand new jesus follower at the age of 18 i think.. there are around 60 entries surprisingly.
2) i realize it's quite embarassing.. but equally sweet and endearing to read about how much i seriously LOVED to write about my newfound relationship with jesus... how much i apparently "loveloveloved" life, used words (a lot) like "glory" 'holy" "fabulous" and other totally non-original words like "hehehe" and "man alive". it's very funny.
3)this was a really sweet time in my life i think.. it was right before my whole life progressed as i was about to make the transition down to southern CA. i was rrrreeeally really young. even though it was only like.. 4 years ago, 4 years of living on your own sort of makes you grow up really fast i guess and especially moving to a place like LA where you are surrounded by so many artistically gifted and talented people who challenge you quite a bit.. i don't know.. it's sort of shocking that this was me only 4 years ago. i feel like my voice was so "young" sounding. maybe it still is?
4) again.. i noticed that i talked about Jesus A LOT.. which it not necessarily a bad thing at all.. just interesting. my conversion to Christianity was brand new (a mere 1 year old), and it was honestly like a re-birth of perspectives for me. everything and everyone seemed so alive to me. i couldn't HELP but see all the goodness in everyone and everything all the time. my experiences hadn't led me to feel too jaded about anything yet... though i don't think i'm jaded about much of anything these days either. His love was just bursting out of me.. i had to write about it all the time.. He was all i thought about.
5) i also talked a lot about love. and jason mraz. and ben harper. i really talked a lot about love though. i was really into the idea of being young and in love. not necessarily married at that age.. just in love.
6) note that my profile picture was not even a picture of me, but in fact a picture of scarlett johansson from lost in translation. guess i was obsessed with that movie too.
7) i'm pretty sure that when i made the URL for this LJ.. i was going through a pretty serious michael buble (extremely embarassing) phase, and the movie "down with love" had just come out i think.. and anyways.. he did a cover of the song "kissing a fool" and i was rrrreally into it. and also there was a movie that i owned starring jason lee called "kissing a fool" which may very well be his worst movie to date.. but either way, i loved michael buble, and really loved jason lee. so i think the title served multiple purposes.


8) it's really funny. you can read it here if you want:
http://kissingafool33.livejournal.com/